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song i

the art of time is based upon / all of the facts we can't accept / bury the broken hearted / bury the optimistic / we're waiting for the hopeful and all their ideas / but they will all fall in line eventually / to cover up the pages of their doubt / the dreams of the young will be broken down / and trampled on / to lead the way for empty hearts and endless decay / we all move on we all move on we will all die someday / and all that's left is the history of a broken endless parade / full of nonsense described in books in the language of the past / that never dies delivered by the strong of heart to make the process seem okay / we break our hearts we sell our souls we're not okay we're not okay / living in an empty state taking time and filling space / what's the point of a long gradual slow decay / i can't wait / so bring it on yeah bring it on to melt our identities / with of awful pain designed to hurt our fragility we all need space / we all need space

song ii

i'll break your heart without a reason that you can understand / i'm drunk enough to be my own muse for all that's wrong for all that's true / listen for the gentle truth it's in the air but not audible / to the untrained ear so fuck the power and the knowledge that comes from it / the morning sun is glowing through the window quilts and everywhere / the daily processes are being repeated / working for money and working / to deny our loneliness / the night before the lies i told are bounced around my spinning head / when i was looking for trouble and hurting the girl i love the most / i have to convince her my personal freedom will always be mine and try not to break her / for now i'm left to write about all of the pain that i invite / you think i'm an asshole but i haven't done anything wrong that i can think of / you say i'm a liar but you have known that from the start i haven't changed / your silence hurts but not as much as your commitment to ignoring me / what happened to all of our love i should have slept through today / and through the pain

song iii

daylight ends the blur of night begins / the troubles of the day are worked out in a haze / we're still okay just a little dazed / our differences are too vague / we meet the quota settle our disputes we're still together at least i hope / we lie in bed we fuck our worries away and to the noise / of the interstate and to the sound of the cars / humming across this lonely barren midwestern state / the fallen leaves in my first midwest fall represent change / the cold can sober me up but not as much as the truth / as winter approaches we all can witness death / it's everywhere all at once nature won't argue its place / the randomness engulfs us all no control of anything at / all we're too stuck in our ways and now no one can change / our values are rooted in the ground for one reason / we are far too alone to risk hurting ourselves / the anarchy insanity that makes up life as we know / bewilders us all once we stop to acknowledge it / but the knowledge that comes from such supreme enlightenment / cannot be forgotten so we choose to destroy ourselves / there's life existing in a million directions all / coexisting and creating the backbone of civilization / not even a nuclear war can stop its progression / there's only the sun with it's fiery indifference / the end of time seems like such a wonderful utopia / but heaven and hell are just fictional fantasies there / is never a shortage of planets and solar systems / it's not the end result but the process of getting there / it's possible to be both a / lover and a fighter and not / polarized the truth we thought would / set us free ends up confining us

song iv

i wrote the script for living well / with hawkeye rum and camel lights / but it's gibberish and did me no good / so i'll start from scratch and try again / and again / but these days just seem like weeks / and the years don't pass at all / these words don't match the tone i write / and i'm not sure what i'll do / when they realize that i'm a fraud / i guess i'll make another plan  / and i'm not going to lie i'll never make it to thirty five / so it's easy for me to predict my own insignificance / but drunker that i get the less sense that i make / and another cigarette never sounded so profound / and what the great ones have to say is not so great / it's just a point of view that no one has considered / but the answers to the problems can never be known / so let's write our thoughts like we're the chosen one / but when god is proven dead and humans are extinct / we'll be living in the void and beauty will show it's face / but the emptiness that comes from such obliviousness / is taking hold and breaking through to me / and breaking all my dreams / and breaking everything / my thoughts just clash around my solitary brain tonight / i don't know what i've said and i'd like to keep it that way / but this black book of mine keeps my thoughts for the time / it's not healthy but it's a practice i can abide by

song v

listening to my digital anthem / every walk to work / the sadness of beauty the genius of love / the pain of knowing too much / like the fine line between optimism and naivety / or the philosophy behind a conspiracy / a strong mix of alcohol with bitter solitude / or diazepam and diphenhydramine / the ups and the downs and the lows and the highs / we all want to be high on whatever we can find / fighting for freedom and fighting ourselves / but what's there to protest when there exists love

song vi

love it just appears / out from in the clear / it grabs out and removes our guard / no choice but to give attention / it's nothing i ever thought / i'd want in with a clear head / but when it's here it's here / it's nothing i thought i'd ever mention / but it's too strong to deny / love is not a lie / it makes perfect sense / the power of devotion / the psychedelics of the mind / are changing all the time / it's my mind that's changed not yours / the drug of real intention / the money it can wait / we're broke our backs are cracked / debt's just a four letter word / for giving to the cause / i don't think i'll sleep tonight / i'm too hung up on what is right / dreams are just a lie / a death a grieving sigh / what i could give is not enough / a hard drink something too rough / a bottle of cheap merlot / an opinion that's biased and cold / but i listen to everything / my independence i still fucking cling / but the future can always wait / there's no hiding from fate / when i stumble upon my vice / still i only take my own advice / i could fly free until the end / but all these fragments are hard to mend / we're drifting in and out / consciousness is broken down / the calm before the storm / the euphoric lull / to fall asleep so peacefully / to verse i've never shared / so out of touch with the rest of the world / but so in tune with each other / there's no more remorse / no more regret it is what it is / i'm just passing by / and taking note

song vii

i heard the news from the television set that every living creature will die alone / it's a journey that we all must go on someday a spiritual quest immersed in isolation / but knowing that you're not alone that someone wants to be there with you that you don't have to fight / that someone understands that someone really loves you or at least the idea of you / it's an experiment with love an exploration of drugs a chemical reaction a full body embrace / some things weren't meant to be taken in such close proximity to others the desire to escape / to allow our minds a passageway to another state of being a new universe / i never asked to be an idealistic dreamer but i was born that way and have no choice / now i'm feeling the effects of forty-four pills taken two at a time i'm letting down my guard / taking off into space if i close my eyes i won't come back / i'll let the swirl of music and colors take me where it directs an alternate world / where i'm not alive i just simply exist a vast nothingness covered in emotions / i once felt all passing through me each one for an eternity / but once it's gone it's completely erased from memory until the next time / and it's new again the wonders and joy of a world without time / lifting up and floating in an endless outer bliss being tugged and pulled and stretched and dragged / in more directions and dimensions and degrees than you ever knew or thought were possible / swimming with the current and not against it you can't fight something that does not exist / and if you don't think too hard you might understand what it means to be / the path of progress from primal to space age and all the death between i joined them for a day / but when the dreams ends we're thrown back into the unknown waking up to the struggle with a blank expressionless tone / reconnect my senses to my body merging left and right trying to remember the thought process of last night

song viii

it's not natural / i want to pass out and go to sleep / but i'm wide awake instead / it's too many contradictions / waging war inside the host / and fighting for attention / i can't tell what this feeling is / it's so subtle in emotion / the fungus put a spell on me and everything i think and see / my taste buds are their home they're hiding in my teeth / spitting out the spores for the confusion construction / carving out the holes for housing nature's army / forcing back the alien / gagging to hold my tongue / surprise it's another obstruction / it's such a touch feat to get anything done / i've chased with conviction the path of the crook / buried in my stomach the enemy lurks / i've let the cobra loose with its sharp teeth it insists / the devil's in control building up from below

song ix

song x

(above the traffic ignore the sun under the covers i'll never run / a hidden place in my mind back in touch no longer blind / i am floating through empty space where the darkness is my embrace / with my lover i'll never lose he always lets me be who i choose) / give me an honest look into my core personality / it's not what's solved or learned it's what we do to play our part / if you can't live blindfolded it takes strength and courage / lured by intrigue and a lack of patience the big picture has never been clear / (you have shown me so much love your gentle hands i want more of / everything that you are you fill a void i've always had / and all i am or will be i give to you it's so easy / what better hands to put love in your word is true true blue) / my thoughts are dropping off and transforming i can't distinguish what is real right now / the perpetual pills mainlined into me challenging me to make an educated guess / random memories from the buried corner of my subconscious entertain me / so elusive and unpredictable weaving webs and conjuring up plot lines / that could never mix digging up old artifacts from my mind i'd long forgotten about / there must be a logic and a deeper meaning connect the dots and make assumptions / try to find some sense and explanation to all this strangely calm yet madding realm my world is upside down / just when i think i understand the hidden message i wake up and the dream escapes me / sleep it's the one last thing to do dream it's the way to obscure fantasy / catch a hold of the lovely theme shine through the pitch black overture / fade the dream you feel's fast and gone face the inevitable uncontrolled fate / let the subconscious take control of you shape the chaos into what you love / force true love to hold its ground give what's not worth keeping around / time use it right it's incapable of stopping peace it will bring you the love you dismissed / happiness is subjective so subscribe to it belief is stronger than common sense / hope what's the point of dreams without it love the one emotion worth clinging to / (sleep dream / catch shine / fade face / let shape / force give / time peace / happiness belief / hope love / sleep to dream and catch what shines fade / out face yourself let it take shape force nothing / give some time for peace happiness is belief / in hope and love) / more powerful than love is the feeling of attachment always in our hearts and minds / hugging our souls and preying on our sincere undying vulnerability / which we'll always have and love it's so perfectly cliché there's no need to be afraid

bio

austin may doesn't hesitate to experiment with other styles and genres, and his newest work, dreamlike, is no exception.  austin has always been committed to concept albums, and since his last release, 20 something, austin has digressed more into post-rock than anything else.  dreamlike is arguably closer to 2007's chemistry than any other release, but they are still miles apart.  may boldly embraces new technology and open mindedness to accompany his songwriting and approach to music.  content on keeping his career as a recording musician, austin seems to take comfort in doing everything himself, with the exception of occasional help from his wife cassie with lyrics and artwork.

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